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New title, expectations rise

Sunday, January 22nd, 2006 | Anything | No Comments

So although I don’t get the salary that goes along with it, looks like my boss wants me to step up again, see what I can do. A small chat this morning has isolated my strengths and weaknesses and with the youngster here (Mat) showing time and time again that he has got what it takes in order to create brilliant applications, my focus on work has moved from a development perspective to a project management perspective. I’m feeling a bit mixed about this. Development has always been my love for work and although I’ve wanted to move in this area, I don’t feel I’m ready. I guess time will tell. For now, I must keep my eyes and ears open more than ever as I try and tackle these new tasks which will push me as an employee, more than I ever have been. I think that’s why Dion has given me this unofficially.

Sleep… Need sleep… no! Never!!!

Thursday, January 19th, 2006 | Anything | No Comments

Have been bad this week. Ever since monday, I’ve only had about 4-5 hours sleep a night. Its friday and its finally taken its toll. Thank god I can sleep in tomorrow. The culprit is once again my nightly addiction - World of Warcraft. I hereby am calling all legal firms to press forward with a ban on such addictive gaming. That said, I’d love for other games companies to be able to step up to the plate and create something as awesome as what Blizzard have done. Call me a fan boi, but they just plain rock. Even after all the patch issues, busted lag-o-meters, continual abuse from furry cats… It still furries on. WoW subscriptions have now totaled 5.5 million subscribers, making World of Warcraft not only the #1 top-selling game in history, but also the only one in history to be able to pull in around 80 million dollars month after month. What’s their secret? Brilliant game designers with a touch of salt.

Guild Site Launched!

Monday, January 16th, 2006 | Hobbies | 5 Comments

Been playing a game called world of warcraft since its open beta last year. Most of you will now this game, not because you play it, but because you know someone who does. That’s how big it is. Anyways, I’m leading my own guild called Legion now and I finished the site last night through a painstaking 6 hour grind that awarded me over one million experience points… Shit. I mean, I finished the guild site at about 3am. If you want, check it out here: http://legion.torm3nt.com.

Overall I’m very proud of how the design worked out and I was able to do it faster than I normally do. For some reason, it all just worked. Graphics are funny.

Emotions Affected by External Sources

Wednesday, January 11th, 2006 | Hmmm | 2 Comments

I’m fairly certain I’m not the only person to have had this issue before, but there are two external aspects to my body that can/will affect the way I feel towards a particular person, or people. That is music and drugs. My personal experiences regarding my partner have resulted in heightened emotions and empathy when under the influence of particular chemicals. However, this is also very similar (though different) when particular songs or sounds are played.

The problem is however, that the drug use + affected emotions = upset/pissed partner. Now, before I go further, I should cover the aspect that in our past together I had abused drugs and it affected my relationship with her in quite a negative way, almost losing her on several occasions. Now with that behind us, it still seems to affect her when I take some chemicals and send messages.etc that explain how I may feel at that moment. This is exactly the same with music. Particular songs and/or tracks may heighten my feelings for my partner, maybe because it brings back a memory, or just loving thoughts are once again brought to the fray. So, I ask you - without the past of our relationship, is this a similar aspect?

My partner I think is sometimes offended by the fact that it takes external influences to get to those heights in regards to my emotions and feelings for her. I do not love her any less without them, its just that they (music and drugs) can heighten it even more. Is this a bad thing? Is there a limit to how much you can love someone? My own personal opinion is that even if you loved someone as much as you possibly could, there’s always going to be something, or someone that reminds you of that person and heightens those emotions further.

My First Blog!

Wednesday, January 11th, 2006 | Anything | 2 Comments

Been wanting to do my own blog for quite some time now, but to be honest, the amount of time necessary to make something that could do everything that’s already been done before… I’ll pass.

So here I am, now looking at the first words to be written into my new blog. Not that flash, I know, but who cares? Anyone that happens to stumble across this internet property I now own will probably pass by without knowing they’ve just passed up an incredible opportunity - to read the thoughts of a not-so-important 23 year old. It could be better, I know, but they probably found a porn link.

If you want, you can bookmark this site (henceforth known as ‘the’ blog, not ‘a’ blog), and check up on me from time to time. You never know, you might find something incredibly motivating or inspiring by reading the brilliant thoughts that etch these pages. Or, you might just find a porn link. In any case, I hope that anything you find here proves valuable in its own little way! /wave